are the ones we fight daily
in the silent chambers of the soul.
- David McKay
I was reading one of Robert Genn’s wonderfully eloquent and informative letters (The Painter’s Keys) the other day, in which he was addressing the struggles of living life as an artist: “We have chosen to be this way…” he writes.
But have we really? For those of us who create, have we chosen to do so or have we just surrendered to an inner voice that has finally spoken louder than those around us?
I don’t know if the decision to live my life as an artist was really a choice at all…it simply happened the day that I stopped fighting myself. By removing myself from the inner ring of contention, I simply began doing what I knew I must do. And suddenly, I was at peace…no longer trying to quell that restless urge to keep searching for something that did not even have a name.
Maybe the choice Robert Genn speaks of has to do with choosing to choose ourselves…I’m thinking this may be because I have definitely found that it is easier to deal with the external pressures and repercussions of living this creative life than it is to fight the tsunami of curious, analytical and expressive energy inside of me.
- Kathe Kollwitz